I have no idea where to start with this!!! It's not like I don't have a million thoughts of things I'd like to share with my FB friends every half second! I guess putting my thoughts into paragraphs rather than a few sentences is a little more intimidating! YIKES!
My life up to now has been all kids, all day for almost 5 years! I thought I would last at this jig until Jacob was in Kindergaten, but I've waved the white flag two years early. I guess if I was the typical stay at home mom whose husband came home every day at about 5 pm I would be able to last two more years. BUT my husband is gone all week and comes home for the weekends. SUCKS!
I feel like I complain about this frequently, but seriously, it's a tall order of madness! I wonder if my kids are going to be scarred from the number of times I lose my cool with the constant toddler drama. Or by the fact that I'm always trying to find something other to do to escape the drama (like blogging right now).
It's a lonely job. Even with the awesome friends I have made, it's still SO lonely. Come 5 pm their husbands are usually home and they are wrapped up in their family routines.
My latest and greatest (in theory) solution has been to go back to work 2 years earlier than planned. The second part of this "great" plan was to bribe my 22 year old cousin from PA to move to what his friends call the "Dirty South". I've rationalized it every way I can. He needs money for school in NYC; I'm willing to give almost half of my new salary to him because I know he will love my children, play with my children, keep them in line; AND be company/entertainment for me most evenings. There are other rationalizations, but I can't remember them all right now.
It sounds like the "perfect plan", but I'm sure there is something I'm missing in my logic.
Ultimatley, I'm hoping in a few years I can bring my husband home from the grooling life on the road. It would be nice to be a typical family with both parents home on a weekly basis, but at this point, that's not the case.
I'm starting this blog two weeks before I return to work. It'll be interesting to see how our life changes with me back in the land of getting paid for a hard days work. I'm hoping I'll appreciate my children more and have more positive interactions with them now that I won't be constantly trying to escape them for a loooong moments peace.
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Yay Danielle, you started a blog! Good for you. I can't imagine taking care of my kids with limited relief. I would have gone insane by now if I were you. If I lived closer I would gladly volunteer to help you out, but I don't. Sorry. I hope this new job will live up to all of your expectations. I will keep your family in my prayers. - Melissa
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